Post-Op Day Three

Post-Op Day Three


        This was a very eventful day for our sweet little trooper. His sats weren't great but he was hanging in there for most of the morning. They decided to go ahead and take him off the vent. We were so ready to see our boy without that breathing tube. We were excited about the possibility of him being really awake for the first time since surgery. 
          At 9:33am they pulled the vent tube out of his throat and he got put on heavy flow oxygen. They also pulled the NG tube out at that time. We got to see his precious little mouth for the first time in a few days. His mouth was super dry so the nurses gave us these tiny little sponge-on-a-stick things that we would dip in water and let him suck on. He liked it sometimes and got mad as fire other times. Believe me, if he didn't want it, he'd let you know. 
           As soon as they pulled the vent tube out he started to try to cry but his little throat was too sore to make any real noise. He could only get out faint whispery crys at first but they grew louder and stronger throughout the day. We let him suck on a passy for a while and let him chew on his favorite teething toy, Ernie G. Raff. :) He really went to town chewing on Earnie. He also started really opening his eyes for the first time. It was wonderful getting to see our boy again. We had missed those beautiful eyes. Later they came back and took out both of his pacing wires. Then he also got to get one drainage tube, his catheter, and his head monitor off. What a BIG day! 

         That evening, as Jack started to wake up more and more, he really started to grow more and more fussy. He started to have little episodes where he would wake up and thrash around in his bed. He would cry his sad hoarse little cry and open his foggy eyes as much as he could. He was having headaches related to the pressure change in his head caused by the surgery. As a result of the BD Glenn, the pressure in Jack's head suddenly became the equivalent of a normal person hanging upside down for several hours. This is because his lungs are used to working really hard to pump and now they aren't having to work as hard. Now they are tensing up and pumping blood to his head. Dr. Borisino said this is a normal side effect of the Glenn and would resolve itself when Jack's lungs get used to the pressure and relax. Until then he will have really bad headaches. 
          Although the pressure headaches are normal and expected for Glenn babies, Jack seemed to react much worse than most babies. And because his sats are already low, he doesn't have much reserve for when he gets upset. Meaning, most Glenn babies whose sats are in the 80s might get upset and drop their sats to the 60s. But because Jack's sats are starting in the 60s, when he gets mad and his sats drop, its dangerous. So, besides worrying about how much pain he was in and doing our best to console and comfort him, we were also watching the monitor and worrying about the numbers. It was a tough night for all of us. 

"Our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all." 2 Corinthians 4:17

Post-Op Day Two

Post-Op Day 2


         We woke up this day determined that it was going to be a good day. We prayed for a miracle and believed that God would provide.


         It was pretty early when Dr. Dable came around the corner. I was SO happy to see him that I practically knocked people down trying to get to him. He told me that he had emailed me back but I hadn't gotten it because cell phone service at the hospital is non-existant. He instantly began to reassure me about Jack's condition. He said that even though the saturations were still low, Jack was tolerating it well and that is what really matters. He said that they weren't happy with the sats but that they would figure out what was causing them to be so low and how to get them back up. He said that Jack was still going to be ok.


           Why couldn't he have been there the night before when I was desperate for someone to say just that? Maybe God was testing my ability to rely on Him instead of the doctors for my hope and reassurance.


            Message received Lord. Lesson learned.


"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go." Joshua 1:9


           Needless to say that post-op day two was off to a good start already. Jack's sats were still pretty low but we felt reassured that a solution was coming. Not long after Dr. Dable left Jack's bedside Dr. Borisino came by to tell us that he was going to meet with Dr. Dable and Dr. Law and come up with a plan for Jack. They were trying to decide if taking him off the vent was a good idea. They had just ran a test on Jack with the ECHO machine where they put some saline mixed with blood which formed tiny little micro bubbles into his veins then watch where it goes.This test would tell them if any blood was passing the Glenn and going straight to the heart. This could possibly explain why his sats were so low.
          Dr. Law came out of their meeting and told us that they had all agreed to leave Jack on the vent for now and to take him back for another heart cath. They felt like Jack's problem was probably one of two things. Either there was a vein that goes around the BD Glenn that used to be closed but had popped open because of the new pressure in Jack's heart. They assumed this was a possibility because of the results of the bubble test. If this was the case then that vein could be pumping blood past the Glenn and into the heart instead of taking the Glenn route to Jack's lungs. The other thing they were going to check for was just if everything from the surgery looked good. They said that because they already knew that Jack's lungs were healthy before the surgery then if everything from the surgery looked good and was working like it should,  they could safely conclude that Jack's sats were just taking longer to rise to an acceptable number but that given some time, they would.
          Even though we didn't want to have to do another procedure, we were relieved that they were able to promise us that some answers were coming soon. So, we signed the consent forms for the cath. Dr. Borisino also told us that there was a little bit of fluid sitting between Jack's lungs and his chest and they needed to put in a chest tube to drain that fluid. So, we signed the consent forms for that too. Sure, go ahead and put three new holes in our baby, like he hasn't been through enough already...Grrr.   The chest tube went it fine and instantly started to drain a pretty good amount of fluid. They said this would help the lungs to expand all the way and maybe bring his sats up a point or two. Then at 11am, they wheeled him off to the cath lab. It's funny how scared we were a few weeks ago when Jack had his first cath and now, compared to open heart surgery, heart caths are a total walk in the park.
           After waiting, and waiting, and then waiting some more, about three and a half hours to be specific, they called for me and Josh to go back. They told us that everything inside looked great. No open veins carrying blood past the Glenn. No problems with the surgery. Just a few spots on his lungs that were collapsed but that should fix itself when he started moving around, breathing hard, and coughing again. So, what they concluded was that Jack's heart function looked good and his sats will eventually rise on their own. They said that it might take some time and we should be patient but the good news is that there isn't really anything to worry about as long as his numbers stay above 60.


"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." Phil. 4:6-7




          
      

Post-Op Day One

Post-Op Day One:

           This was an extremely challenging day. Challenging our patience, our nerves, and our faith. Jack's saturations dropped to an extremely low point and we saw incredible, experienced doctors panic. There were moments when we were faced with the fear that our son might not make it through all of this. Seeing the faces of the doctors and hearing them make desperate phone calls was beyond scary to say the very least. It was the kind of day that no parent should ever have to live through. We are thankful now that its over and we don't plan to ever have another day like that one. 

          The comfort that we have in being believers is that God is in there with us. When it all becomes too much, He is with us. When our tears fall and our hands shake, He is with us. When we fear the unknown, He is with us. When we face our worst nightmares, He is with us. The peace that transcends all understanding settles in the room with us and we know that He is there and He is in control. His plan will always prevail and it will always be what is best. Trusting may be difficult at times when fear creeps in the back door but He is infinitely patient. Then, when we finally find it within ourselves to trust completely, God delivers on a profound and amazing promise. That if you only have faith, anything is possible. Mountains will move. Praise God for that. 

          Jack's saturations we're lower than normal babies after the BD Glenn. They couldn't figure out why. By that evening, the two doctors that we are familiar and comfortable with (Dr. Law-Jack's cardiologist and Dr. Dable- Jack's surgeon) had gone home and the doctor that was there was the CICU doctor (Dr. Borisino) who seemed insecure and nervous. He made many comments about how scared he was and how he wasn't sure what he was going to do. Needless to say it was a scary time for us. There was talk about a possible need for another surgery. They said that the times that they have had to resort to this surgery in the past, they usually had to go back in two weeks later and undo it. That would be three surgeries in a couple of weeks.They told us that they wanted to avoid that at all costs because the risks would be so much higher now that he has just come out of one surgery and would be going right back into the OR. They continued to tell us how uncommon it was for a baby to have such low sats after this surgery and how they were so unsure about what could be causing it. Also inferring that they had no idea how, or even if, they could fix it. 
       By that night, we had grown scared and desperate. I emailed Dr. Dable and told him that I wanted him to know that Jack's sats were still really low and that Dr. Borisino was scaring us. I apologized for bothering him at home but I needed some reassurance that Jack was still going to be ok. This was the lowest, scariest moment for us. 


Isaiah 43:2 says, "When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze." 


Never has this scripture been more true in my life than it was on post-op day 2. We passed through the waters that day but the good news is that we were only passing through. There were moments when we may have felt like the waters were sweeping over us, like we were drowning, but we didn't drown. God's word promises us that we will never be asked to carry more than we can bear. Only God knows our breaking point. And what you discover in those moments of desperation is that through God you can find a strength inside of yourself that doesn't really belong to you. That you could never muster on your own. But through God, that strength is there. 


We are warriors. Brave, strong, tough. We are fearless. 


Romans 8:31 asks us, "If God is for us, who can stand against us?" The answer is no one. No fear. No disease. No trial. Praise God, for He loves us and He is good. <3

Surgery Day

Well, we made it through today.

Jack is finally recovering in the CICU. Josh and I got to speak with Dr. Dable and he told us that the surgery went really well. All three procedures went great and they accomplished everything they went in to do. There were a few complications that came up during surgery, the most challenging being a heart flutter and severe bleeding. He is still bleeding now but Dr. Dable said that it should slo...w down and eventually stop on its own. As far as the heart flutter goes, he had the same thing during his heart cath and so they are planning to watch his rhythms closely over the next few days and if need be they will put him on medications to balance it out. The good news is that there is no danger that he will need a pacemaker.
Right now he is sleeping and will be for most of the evening and night tonight. They were planning to try to get him off the vent tonight but then his O2 sats never rose and are sitting in the low 70s so Dr. Dable said that he will leave him on the vent until his sats rise to the 80s and that could be Friday or Saturday. Please pray with us that they begin to rise soon.
Overall this was a successful day and we are on the road to recovery. We’re still in a really critical place and its still scary but we continue to trust that God is taking good care of him. We are SO thankful for all of your prayers and sweet words of encouragement today and we ask that you continue to pray just as hard for his sats to rise and for him to have a quick and easy recovery. We just want to see our smiling boy again soon.
We are so thankful to our amazing God for moving this mountain today. He provided us with a miracle and we know that its because God has big plans for our son to do something extraordinary with his life. God has shown up for us time and time again and we just hope that everyone who is following our story sees the hands of God at work in our sweet boy’s little life. God is BIGGER and is able to do more than we can ask or imagine. ALL of the glory be to Him who does provide.

Jeremiah 29:11/Isaiah 40:31/Ephesians 3:20

Heart Cath Results

The days leading up to Jack's heart cath were long. I was really nervous and started breaking out in hives. I've never done that before so I decided to go to the doctor. I went to After Hours and got a couple of shots and they put me on Prednisone. It has helped me keep it under control for the past week and I am going to see Tiffany's allergy specialist tomorrow morning to hopefully get a more permanent solution.


The night before was tricky. We couldn't give Jack any breast milk after 3am and we had to be there at 6. I was really worried about timing it out right so that he wouldn't be starving that morning. Needless to say we got no sleep that night between trying to work out the timing and stressing over the procedure. We we're up at 2:15 giving Jack his bottle and then I was in the shower by three. We had packed enough for one night just in case we had to stay but were hoping they'd let us go. We pulled out at 4:45 and Jack watched Spongebob on the IPAD in the car until he fell back asleep.


When we got there we were put into a regular room and started the wait. They told us that Dr. Law would be by in a little while to talk to us before they took him back. They brought in the tiniest little hospital gown for us to put on him and let me tell you.. Nobody can make a hospital gown look cute like my boy. :)

Dr. Law came by around 8 and talked us through what they would do. He said they would put him under with a mask and then start his IV. He wouldn't be back there long at all before he was put under which made me feel a little bit better. I didn't want him to feel scared when we weren't back there with him. Then after they were ready he would go in through a tiny incision in his groin and then go into his heart where they would measure pressures and take pictures. He explained the risks but let us know that Jack was in a low risk category and he felt certain that it would be an easy procedure. He said he would call the phone in the room when they were done to let us know how it went. It should take him about three hours once anesthesia was done with their part.


After that Josh and I walked with the nurses down to the floor that he would be on and we walked him to the door of the OR. We kissed him a thousand times and then a few times more before I handed him to a very sweet nurse in brown scrubs. She promised to take good care of him. We watched until the rounded the corner and then I cried all the way back up to our room while people looked at me and wondered what was wrong with the crazy sobbing lady. Haha


When we got back we just had to settle in for a few hours of nervous waiting. I hated the thought that he was down there without me but I knew he was in good hands and was sound asleep. It was also really comforting to have a lot of family around to talk to and joke with. It make time pass really quickly. After about 3 and a half hours the phone rang.


Dr. Law told me that the procedure went well. He said Jack did fine and was resting now and we could see him soon. He said they had one episode during the procedure where his heart rate went up for about 15 minutes but then it balanced back out on its own. Other than that it all went well and there was no damage done to his veins. He told me that he had to make some rounds and would come by our room later that day to give us the details.


Then Josh and I got to go meet Jack in recovery. We practically ran. When we got there he was in his tiny little bed still hooked up to monitors. They had removed the tape from his face but the sticky residue still marked his sweet cheeks. He was still so out of it that he couldn't keep his little eyes open. He tried so hard to open them and look at us but they would just roll back into his little head. We kissed all over him and petted him while we waited for his recovery time to be over. When that time had passed we walked next to his little bed while they rolled him back to his room where our family anxiously waited for him to round the corner. They were so happy to see him and he was finally starting to come around more and open his eyes good.

When we got settled back in the nurse said I could try to feed him. The poor baby hadn't eaten in so long. We got wrapped up in blankets and settled into a chair and he went to town on his bottle. Over half way through his 5 ounces he started throwing it all back up. It wast he most he had ever thrown up at one time and it scared me and him both. We got him sat up and he got it all out and then we wrapped him in some different blankets and let him settle in for a nap in the MaMaRoo swing that they had brought in for us to use.


His little leg was still hurting from his incision plus he was really sick from the anesthesia so he didn't sleep well at all that day. He would roll around and moan like he was hurting and sick. It was so hard as a mommy to know he wasn't feeling good and I couldn't do anything about it. As far as that goes it was a really long day and an even longer night. We had to spend the night because his reaction to the anesthesia was rare for a baby and the doctors and nurses didn't really seem to know what to do for him. We just basically had to wait it out. We tried over and over to feed him, first breast milk and then Peidalyte and he just couldn't keep anything down. He eventually emptied his tummy out and started to dry heave. That was just pitiful. We finally convinced them to start a new IV and start getting some fluids into him. We were really worried.


When he got his IV for the procedure they had stuck him 16 times. There were bruises and stick marks all over my poor baby's body. We were outraged to tell you the truth. They had even stuck him in his sweet head. We just felt that was completely unnecessary. When it was time to stick him again you can bet Josh and I were going to be in there. Even if they made it clear that they didn't like that. They took him to a different room and three nurses worked to find a good spot. Thankfully, they got a good one on the first try in his little hand and they wrapped it well so that it wouldn't get messed up like the last one had. He had been through enough. This needed to be his last stick for the day.


When we got back to the room Dr. Law was waiting there for us. He explained exactly what he had found in the cath and the steps we would take from there. Here's what he told us.


He talked a little bit about his VSD which we already knew he had but he also told us about some narrowing at his ASD which will need to be made bigger. There is also some narrowing at his Pulmonary Valve which restricts some blood flow to his lungs. The pressures there are not dangerously elevated but are a little bit on the higher side and they will need to be mindful of that when doing his surgery. His VSD is a little bit on the small side and causes some pressure drop which again is something they needed to know about when moving forward.


Dr. Law then said that he has decided to move forward with his surgery in the next month. There is also a little bit more surgery in addition to the Glenn that will need to be done at the same time. One thing that will need to be done is an atrial septectomy which will make that hole (ASD) bigger. Also a Damus-Kaye-Stansel procedure which will bring the pulmonary artery over to the aorta. This allows the blood to go out both pathways so that the pressure in the ventricle is not higher than the pressure outside of it. They will also do the Glenn at the same time.


He feels that Jack has grown really well and is a nice size for this procedure and he feels that the benefits of going ahead with the procedure far outweigh the added risks. Basically, its time and we're going for it.


He said we should be made aware of a couple of things going into the surgery. Many times when they do the Glenn there will be an improvement in the saturation. But Jack's saturation is already good so there will be an improvement in his blood flow but ultimately we might not see much change in his saturations. He said they might even be lower after surgery because of all of the changes his heart will go through but there will be a nice physiological improvement for his heart for the long term. Which is really where it counts anyway.


We are still looking to do the Fontan procedure at around 2-3 years of age. So after this procedure next month his long term plan is still the same. The only changes in his overall plan are the additions he has added to the Glenn surgery. After that we'll continue on our original course of action.


He did add that Jack's heart function is really good and the valves work really well. He said that his function is fine and the problem he has is with the plumbing. He said overall he thinks everything still looks favorable and he has a really positive outlook on how everything is going to go.


From there we discussed surgeons and scheduling. He has a surgeon that he has chosen and scheduling will call us within the next couple of weeks to hammer out a specific date.


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After a long night for our sweet boy, he finally started taking small amounts of breast milk the next morning and by that afternoon had successfully kept down four ounces. We finally got discharged at around 2:30 and came home. It still has taken a couple of days for him to bounce back but he thankfully woke up happy this morning and has had a great day. He has also gone back to his regular 4-5 ounces today which was a big relief for us. There is just SO much comfort in being at home with our boy. When we're at home it doesn't feel like there is anything to be afraid of.


Now we just have a month of anxious waiting ahead of us. Josh and I have decided to focus on our spiritual preparation. There is no amount of emotional or physical preparation that we can undergo that will ever render us ready to hand our son over to surgeons in a months time. We have decided to spend this month in the Word and in prayer because God is the only preparation that we truly need. We are praying for His hand on our sweet boy. That he will guide the hands of the surgeons, doctors, and nurses that work on Jack. That He will provide complete healing in our son and allow this surgery to be the means by which that healing comes. We know He has a purpose for this and we intend to be used to the greatest extent that we can be.


We are also praying for God's comfort and peace to be upon us during this time. As we find out more information about the surgery we grow more nervous and anxious. We are praying that God will just be with us and allow us to get through this with as much strength as possible. We know that God's plan is moving right now and we are just doing our best to have faith and trust in His plan. He is our Lord and we trust Him.


Ephesians 3:20-21 "Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen."


Our God is able to do immeasurably more than anything I can ask him to do or imagine he could do for me or for Jack. He will provide healing and peace for my son and my family. I am standing on the Word of my sweet savior. Please stand and pray with me. <3

Easter and a Heart Cath

Tomorrow is Baby Jack's three months birthday! Happy birthday Baby Jack! <3

Thinking back to just three short months ago...I was getting ready to become a mommy. I had no idea what God had in store for me. The next day would be the happiest and scariest day of my life. Since that day my life has changed so much. My whole little world shifted on its axis the day my Jack came into my life. I've never been more thankful than I am right now for the blessings of my God. Just look at that sweet little face. Every little thing he does is magic.<3

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This weekend we spent our first holiday with our precious boy. And what more wonderful holiday is there to celebrate with our sweet son than the resurrection of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. We will spend our lives and dedicate our mission as parents to teaching our son the magnitude of what God did for us when he sent his son to die on OUR cross. We are literally eternally grateful for his sacrifice. Thank you Lord.

Jack had a great time at his first family get-togethers. He got to meet new aunts, uncles, and cousins. He got to hunt Easter eggs and even went to church for the first time with his mom and dad. Everyone was so glad to see him. It was a great weekend.

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Now that Easter is over, its time to start focusing on Jack's heart catheteriation that is going to take place next Wednesday, April 18th. We got the call today with all of the information that we need and now we're in major prayer mode. We're praying for a BIG miracle that day.

Josh and I will take Jack in to be admitted into UAB at 6am. We'll get a private room where we'll then go and wait for them to get ready for him. He's the youngest, so he's the first patient of the day. They'll let me and Josh walk him to the door of the cardiac unit, then we'll give him LOTS of hugs and kisses and say one more prayer for him, then we'll have to go back to his room for the hard part. The waiting.

Jack will be put under with general anesthesia. They'll then give him an IV and then put him on the ventilator. They'll go in through his groin and up the vein. Once they're in his heart they'll just measure pressures and take some pictures. They said it could take up to four hours depending on how difficult it is to maneuver though his small veins. Once they are done, Dr. Law (the cardiologist) will call me and Josh and let us know how it went. They'll take him off the ventilator and get him breathing good on his own again and then he'll go into recovery where Josh and I will meet him. At which point I will scoop him up and love him to pieces. <3 We'll be in recovery for around an hour and then we'll go back to his regular room for at least six hours and possibly the night.

That's the plan. We're praying that everything will go as smoothly as possibly and that it will be quick and easy for him and for us. The nurse who called me today said that it will be much harder on us than it will be on him. She said the incision is tiny and shouldn't be too sore. And they're going to wait until he's under to do his IV so he won't be in pain when mommy's not there to hold his hand.

Please pray with us. This is his first really invasive procedure. It's his first time to be put to sleep. His first incision. His first time to be on the ventiltor. His first time to be away from mommy when they're poking at him. It's very scary for me and Josh. We just pray that God will hold him in His almighty hands. Bring him comfort if he gets scared or upset. Be with the doctors and nurses while they do their work. Let this procedure go as smoothly as possible. Allow for a quick and easy recovery. And most importantly, AMAZING results.

We are trusting our God 100% for the results that we want to hear. We know that He has an amazing plan for Jack's life and we are believing in His will. He has brouht us this far and given us miracle after miracle with our sweet boy. How could we not trust Him?

Ephesians 3:20  Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within.

Our God is MORE than able to do MORE than we could ever ask or imagine. Miracles ARE possible.

Ten things I LOVE about you

I love you in more ways than I could ever count or describe. The moment our eyes met for the first time I knew my life would never be the same. You instantly became my whole world. My love for you is infinite. Only God could ever love you more.


Now you're almost three months old and you change a little everyday. You're growing so fast and learning new things all the time. You love to explore the world and watch everything around you. You're the happiest baby. You love to smile. Your little gummy smile melts my heart. Me and your daddy will literally do anything to see that sweet smile.


Right now I just want to cherish every second of you being my tiny baby because you'll be grown into a little boy before too long. Here are ten of my very favorite things about you right now.


1. When you've been asleep and we pick you up for the first time you always curl your little legs up so tight and stretch your arms out. You love to stretch. You stretch out your little neck and sqeeze your eyes closed tight. It's one of my very favorite things you do.


2. I love the way that your little ears stick out just enough off the sides of you perfectly round little almost bald head. They make you who you are. Your own little person. My favorite little person.


3. I love the smell of your milky breath when you're falling asleep on my chest and you breathe into my face. I could literally live with you sleeping on my chest breathing into my face. It's heaven.


4. You make the most precious snoring sound when you're deep asleep. Daddy says you snore backwards like Mommy. I say I do NOT snore ;) but I love it when you do.


5. I love how you ALWAYS throw up on Daddy. That's always fun for Mommy. ;)


6. Sometimes when we pick you up when you've been sleping your little leg will shake like a dog. Its so adorable.


7. I love your baby feet. Your big toes are like a mile away from the rest of your toes at all times. Everyone jokes that they could drive a truck through there. You also keep your toes curled up all the time like your Daddy. Bless your heart if you have his feet. ;) And your toes are all really long. Your baby toe is every bit as long as the rest of them. AND your feet are really tiny. Even though you wear 3-6 months clothes now, the 0-3 months shoes are still too big. I just love those tiny feet.


8. You love your changing pad. You love to lie there and stare at your bright colored blanket on the wall. Sometimes you'll just smile so big at that big orange lion. You also love to stretch out on the changing pad. Probably cause its the only time during the day that Mommy lets you lie down. I can't help it though. You're too snuggly to put down if I don't have to.


9. Sometimes when we give you a bottle your little eyes will instantly roll back into your head like that milk is pure heaven. It's too funny. You also do that when you're falling asleep.


10. I love when you stretch out your tiny baby hands. Your sweet little fingers spread out and reach up and touch my face. Precious.


I love you Jack Aaron Odom. So much more than I could ever express and more than you'll ever know. Someday you're going to be an extraordinary man, but for now, just be Mommy's sweet baby boy for a while longer, ok? I'm nowhere near done soaking you up and breathing you in. All of your baby sounds and your baby smells and your baby skin and your baby kisses. Heaven.

I can't wait to watch you grow and see what God has in store for your life. I thank Him everyday for sending you to me. My precious boy.